January 7, 2021

 We are 7 days into 2021, and all I can think is.....WTF!!!

To be fair, online schooling (which is mandatory this week, we await our provincial leader's decision later today about what's next) has been going well, albeit frustrating at times.

PiC (Partner in Crime) is home from work for the next few days, although is spending his time gaming instead of assisting with Minion 1 (M1) schooling and keeping Minion 2 (M2) occupied.  M2 has greatly enjoyed being downstairs with daddy, but getting chores done (and some of my new years goals) is still a challenge.

I decided to make a goal this year of keeping up a daily workout schedule, I usually give up midway through week 3 of the month, and a reading goal.  There is also a "finished the damned crafts you started years ago" goal for the year, but for that we will just keep our fingers crossed.  I'm within 100 pages of finishing reading my first book of the year.  However, I'm also 1 glass away from finishing my first bottle of wine for the year...  M1 has been doing yoga during his online gym class, so I may start doing yoga myself, but once work resumes again, it gets difficult to keep it in the routine.

If we weren't stuck at home doing online schooling this week, I'd be working.  Do I miss my job?  Yes.  Do I want to go back on Monday? I'm not sure.  All of the coronavirus cases went down over the Christmas break, but that means very little as less people were being tested.  Do I worry about cases on my school bus?  Of course, I'd be crazy to not worry.  Many of these kids I have known for several years, and I worry about them, but also miss them.  Yes, we wear masks so I don't get to see their smiling faces everyday, but I do miss them.  I also miss teaching First Aid on the weekends.  Mostly I teach coworkers, but I still miss it.   Although it means I get to sleep in a bit on the weekend...

I'm incredibly grateful that some of my bus kids are in the same class as M1, so I actually get to see their smiles and faces during their video chats!  But, online schooling isn't easy.  I mean it is much easier than it was when we locked down school in the spring, but it still isn't easy to keep M1 focused and on task.

Today, we took a twenty minute walk in our neighbourhood for the last "recess" of the day.  It was nice to get everyone out of the house and moving.  Plus we got to talk to our neighbourhood mail lady.  She's a sweet lady, and I miss chatting with her more often, but Covid and all.

We have another hour, if not an hour and a half or longer to wait for our provincial update (I'm Canadian btw), and we see how much longer certain restrictions will last.  It's scheduled for 4pm, but we all know that it will be late, cause well...history tends to repeat. When our premier is scheduled to attend, it is always later than scheduled.

So, why did I decided to start blogging?  Honestly, I probably should've started blogging again in 2020 (I started one almost a decade ago, but only lasted so long), just to keep track of the year.  Maybe I'll hold onto this one longer.  Maybe it'll be a resolution for 2021...  I know, genetically, that dementia is likely for me in my golden years, and maybe my minions and their minions will find a long term blog one day and they will be able to discern the past and hopefully answer any questions they wish they could've asked.  But, yea, wine had a big say in why "today" was the day.

I'm stressed, I'm frustrated, and I'm determined not to yell and take it out on others with my attitude.  So that means I need some sort of outlet.  While the book 'Midnight Sun' is somewhat helping distract me, it's almost complete and M1 consistently needs help with school.  Plus my coworker and close friend Nell just got keys to her new place and I should be helping her move, but wine means I can't drive.  I feel shitty about that but self care man, self care.  But Nell just suddenly showed up, so I have to leave...have fun!